Tonight was one of the hardest nights of my life to date. Friends and neighbors of our lost their son/grandson on Saturday afternoon due to an accidental drowning. Sweet babe was not even three years old. I was heartbroken for the family and for the past three days have been just ill thinking of their loss and pain. Today I felt that The Lord was leading me to offer to "make impressions". So I offered to make metal clay charms with the baby's finger prints impressed on them so that momma and daddy might always have his fingerprints around their neck or around their wrist. I also inked the baby's hand and pressed it onto paper over a dozen times so that extended family might have a handprint. I bought a Sculpey frame kit that comes with super light weight and soft clay and made two hand impressions into the clay. And finally, I made a few fingerprint molds in hopes of being able to create additional charms and items but because of the fineness of the baby's fingerprints I am unsure how that will turn out.
As I stood there over the lifeless body of this sweet baby my heart broke over and over again. I mourned the loss of this tender life, I mourned the pain, hurt, confusion and anguish these parents, siblings, grandparents, aunts, uncles and all other friends and family are going through right now. I tried to pray and all I could do was cry out for comfort beyond comprehension. As I cleaned his tiny chilled hand free of all the ink, the thought that this sweet tiny hand will never be any bigger kept running through my mind. My momma's heart wept as I pressed his little fingertips into the clay and onto the paper. I prayed with each impression that these would be a comfort to the family in the future and be a sweet reminder of the life they lost all too soon.
Please keep our friends in your prayers. Loss such as this is not one you ever get past, but one that you learn to make room for in your life moving forward.
Please keep me in your prayers as well. These are the most difficult creative projects I have ever created and tonight was just step one in creating them. I can hardly see to type as I finish due to the tears that are overflowing...